Author: Emotional:(:Thinker

Can You Stomach Your Future? Flash forward with me

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 I am dedicating this…well…whatever it is, to  my precious niece and her betrothed on the year anniversary of their impending nuptials: “I love you without knowing how or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride; I love you in this way because I don’t know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my […]

I needed his Darkness in exchange for my Light

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emotional health / emotional scar tissue / human experience / relationships

His name was Tommy. He had fair skin and beautiful clear blue eyes. I believed even in high school that I could see right through them down into his soul. He was a loner and very difficult to read. He didn’t communicate much, if at all. He was guarded, maybe afraid that handing out his affections was frivolous or reckless behavior. I felt like he must be somehow damaged.  His heart felt heavy to me. His eyes, too, had betrayed him. There was a […]

The Socratic Method…and shit like that

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cognition / human experience

  In case you hadn’t figured it out already, the Socratic Method got it’s name from a fellow named Socrates, a classical Greek philosopher. I just heard the term when a buddy of mine suggested I might be using that approach when we chat.  Initially I giggled as a narcissistic young lady might when she believes she’s being the subject of a compliment about her high intelligence.  Imagine my chagrin upon realization that it has far less to do with my superior mind and […]

Hi. I’m here to get Lucky.

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IS what I’ll say as I stand patiently at the reception desk.  A well dressed young lady will then give me a strange look…should she laugh or should she cry?  She’ll put down the pen in her hand, as she’s not quite sure what to write down.  I won’t say a word as I am extremely humbled at that moment.  Usually I fill in awkward moments with gibberish-type banter that slowly erodes as the person gets frustrated […]

Seeking Solace in the Madness

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emotional health / emotional scar tissue / human experience

    How in the bloody hell do you do it?    Do what?   Get through days where all you hear about are the media enhanced war stories, suicides, child abuse and neglect atrocities, gun violence on our neighborhood streets, ISIS, Syria beheadings, earthquakes, fires, melting ice caps, Ebola, political deadlock, the 99%…   Oh. That.  Well, I just have to look at my children. I look into my young son’s deep brown eyes that […]

Are you who you want to be?

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Don’t close your eyes. This is your life: Are you who you want to be? This is your life: Is it everything you dreamed that it would be? When the world was younger and you had everything to lose. Switchfoot It had a hard-hitting beat.  I used to run with it blaring loudly into my earbuds.  It has always been one of those songs that has pushed me to think deeply while charging through my pain even harder than I’d […]

Pulling hair, er…Rank

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Staples commercial circa 2009 It says it all really…I’m sorry, it just does. Meanwhile, I sit in a my counseling office doing Gestalt therapy* on myself.  The session goes something like this: Q – Do I wish that a commercial highlighting the idea that summer is over and my four children have to return to brightly lit classrooms with assigned seating and designated computer use didn’t make me giddy with delight? A – Yes. Yes, […]

Painting beauty With the Ashes

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Her tattoo read “just be held” in black lowercase typewriter-key font.   It was perhaps one of the most impulsive decisions she’d made for the time commitment it required of her body.  She treated herself to those particular three words on a warm day in July when she felt like she was coming completely undone. Casting Crowns new release,Thrive, had premiered on Pandora.  In a moment of utter despair their song, “Just Be Held” spoke to her.  It cut […]

My daughter/Myself

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She looked up at me, tears streaming down both sides of her face.  All I could see were her beautifully lilac-tinted eyes full of water.  It must be the way her tears had accentuated the blueness that she’d been born with, I thought sensibly I don’t remember them being quite that distinctive a shade.  I’m just buying time.  I’m being observant while I think of how to respond to my overwhelmed woman-girl.  Her long wavy hair – both […]

more time…please.

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    See that?  Even these old rusted out cars aren’t alone.  Wonder where they were headed?   Seems I read about them travelling somewhere in Asia.  An earthquake hit and everyone who was able, evacuated their cars and walked to safety.  No one ever retrieved their cars as the road was no longer useable. Cars all crushed and mangled together.  It’s been many years since.  Vehicles as far as the eye can see. This is prompting me to think way more deeply than […]